Ponder

I kind of realised lately that I don’t sit and ponder on God. My thoughts turn to him, but it’s usually about what I would like to do ‘for Him’ or maybe more accurately, what I’m ‘not’ doing for him, but would like to be. Surely the pursuit of him, the understanding, the deepening awareness of who he really is that matters most. Which should then give rise to anything I would be inspired to do from that, not the other way round.